I remember a few years ago I would be sleeping in on a Sunday morning.
My parents would have to march into my room, pull the sheets off me and demand I go to church with them. The times when my mum will force me to go for Youth meeting and threaten to hide my keyboard if I do not go. Those were my high school weekends.
I had no goal in life, I didn't know what I wanted, I was filled with jealousy, hatred, anger and most importantly I was empty inside. I was surrounded by Christian friends but I was not spiritually tuned into God. I was called a Christian but inside I was not.
When I came to Australia, my sister too had to make me go to church. For the first few weeks it felt like a rule. Like an obligation. My sister would call me up and ask me why I'm not at church and because my sister is stricter than my mum, I had to go
That was where I was 5 months ago.
5 months later, I want to share what God has done in my life. He has changed me so much. Church didn't feel like an obligation anymore instead I look forward to go to church every Sunday. The joy of going to church, the complete letting go in church.
What God has done in my life :
#2 Someone told me to write down the goals that I want God to do in my life during Encounter Day and I listed down a few. To really encounter God, to change me, to heal my asthma and tell me how I should fit in. It was amazing because during Encounter Day, we had to fill in a questionnaire to write down all the sins we want to be free from and then at the end, all of us will walk up to a shredder and shred the piece of paper. That feeling of shredding my sins was simply unexplainable.
Not only that, when the prayer team prayed for me, one of the girls told me "God wanted me to tell you that you don't have to change your physical appearance to fit in. He made you beautiful, right from the time you were in your mother's womb." and I don't know why this verse is in my notebook, I don't remember any of the pastors preaching on it but
1 Samuel 16:7 says
"... The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."
That just hit me and tears just started flowing out. I didn't tell anyone my goals, I didn't tell anyone in church about the problems I was facing but God knew and he cares. Even when I was filled with jealousy, hatred and low self esteem, he cared and he loved me.
#3 All the little things in my life that he has done.
During my first English presentation I was shaking but during the second time, you don't know how hard I prayed before my presentation and by his grace, I wasn't scared. I wasn't wobbling / shaking.
The time when I forgot to take my asthma med. For the whole day I felt perfect and I even went for zumba session after that. I felt FINE.
When I was at a low point of my life, God sent me people. Unexpected messages, unexpected texts.
When I was at a low point of faith, thinking God won't heal my asthma, God showed me a miracle that happened to someone in church who had asthma 10 years longer than me but was COMPLETELY healed.
You may say all these are coincidences but I believe it is God. It isn't about religion, it is about relationship. If you ask your Father for bread, he won't give you a stone for he loves you.
I am always inviting my friends to go to church, not because of religion but because I want them to see, what I've seen. The God who added meaning into my life, who gave me a purpose and loves me for me, not for what I have done. The God who gave me freedom and releases all my stress.
Where would I be, without Him ?
This is a long wordy post but I can write pages and pages of what God has done in my life. It is amazing. From a person who needed to be dragged to church to a person who goes to two sessions of church every Sunday. That is my testimony on how God changed me.
Have a great week ahead everyone ! :)